moon

full moon in taurus last night.

i had to work at the shop. the bf didn't get back until 6pm.

i went over to his house with abnormally high expectations, given the full moon and how tired we both were.

we tried to watch march of the penguins. got sleepy.

i wanted to stay up and joke around and laugh.

he wanted to sleep.

after several attempts, i pouted, which lead to: "sometimes i don't think you care about what i want."

gasp. ouch.

it hurts mostly because i think he really believes it is so.

how much i care is in my head, looking for a way out, and i assume he just knows. but like most things between us, it lies under the surface and isn't easily said. we think we're both on the same page, but because we don't say it we don't really know. i try to find the words but i lose them.

sometimes, the only thing that matters to me is what he wants.