pocket ace

s. says that everyone walks around with an invisible playing card on their forehead.

meaning, if i am a king, i will be drawn to other kings. if i am a two, i will be drawn to other twos.

this theory is interesting to me because although i do like the ace, what does that mean? i'm a one OR an eleven?

it makes sense because people born on december 24 (the day of complex emotions) are definitely this OR that people. not that i lack conviction. i know what i know. i know what i want. i am not even easily swayed. but, i'm complicated, and not easy to figure out, though i claim to be. hey, easy to bed is another story, right?

anyway, i am not a shades of gray person. i'm black. OR white. my mom tells me that i need to think in shades. i try. but when i see things in 'maybe' i get frustrated and fall back on myself. i don't like to swing back and forth. i don't even like to be indecisive. i like to know.

so what happened to the princess card?